There are times when you have to sit back, recognize & acknowledge those who were supportive in your journey on becoming a physician. Unfortunately, this particular medicine resident isn’t one of those people. I am writing this to serve as encouragement for those who while on the road to their dream might run into obstacles set to deter you.
I was starting my second month of Internal Medicine and by this time I was pretty sure that this was the field that I wanted to specialize in. I was one of two students along with three residents, with Dr. Klienman-Allen being the senior. It was obvious in the beginning of the rotation she clearly had some internal issue with me because she would often go out her way to reprimand me for things that both the students & even the other residents were guilty of including getting to the hospital “late” but due to my laid back demeanor I never really give it any much more thought. Similar situations continued to occur throughout the month, so needless to say I began counting down the days till it was over & I wouldn’t have to see her no longer on consistent basis.
Then comes the LAST day of the rotation where the attending and I got into it because I didn’t know whether a patient still had his JP drains in from a emergent surgery he had a couple days prior. For those who know the attending he can have his PMS-like days & this was one of them so he sent me home & left it to resident to give me my grade for the rotation. I didn’t think much of it because again this was the LAST day of the rotation & since there clearly wasn’t any major issues prior to this event what’s the worst that could happen. Little did I know that Dr. Klienman-Allen would spend the next 2 weeks thinking/imagining/embellishing things to put in my evaluation because I found out half way through my next rotation that I failed the previous one. Up to the point where I was labeled the “trouble student” at Palmetto, which is funny on so many different levels.  So here I am gung-ho Internal Medicine & I failed my second month out but had no clue as to why.
Almost into the 3rd week of the next rotation I had to sit in front of this committee at NSU filled with professors, & administrators trying to explain my actions & why I didn’t deserve to fail the rotation. At the time I still hadn’t seen my evaluation which the resident clearly made a point for me not to see so the first time I get to actually see what I had been accused of was during the meeting. I was so surprised at the amount of lies & over exaggerations that I was literally speechless( which is very rare for me). I was being blamed for things that any malpractice lawyer would have salivated over and the only thing I could think about is how could anyone with knowledge of how Palmetto General Hospital works actually think that it could be possible for a student to be responsible for so much without ANY checks & balances from the 3 residents & attending on the service.
Here I was thinking that my career in Internal Medicine was over before it even started, how was I going to explain to program directors how I could fail the second month of Internal Medicine & still want to go into it. There wasn’t any time to sulk because I knew the spot light would be on me for the entire duration at the hospital, which was about 6 months. I busted my behind through Cardiology, Gyn-Onc., Surgery & Psychiatry to end my time there at Palmetto on a high note. What helped get me through this extremely concerning time was the faith & belief I had in myself and I just took a stand that regardless of how Dr. Kleinman-Allen felt about me I knew that I was going to be an Internal Medicine physician.
Fast forward and I am on the way to Columbia Hospital for Internal Medicine and truly believe that she is responsible for strengthening my drive to want to become the best Internal Medicine physician I can be and for that I thank her.